What is my underlying sense of call?

Through out my journey I have considered many vocations and types of ministry. However, I am always drawn back and feel a pull towards specified ordained ministry. I feel I have gifts and graces that would make me a suitable candidate for this ministry.

I have a deep passion for the community and for those who are disadvantaged and are on the fringes of society. I feel a need to minister to people beyond the gathered congregation. I believe everyone needs to hear the gospel, but not everyone hears it in the same way (eg: the parable of the grains). Different people respond to the gospel in different ways. I believe it is about spiritually nourishing people in ways that make them feel moved and empowered (and indeed nourished). Some find this nourishment and encouragement within the walls of a church on a Sunday, through a sermon, hymns, bible readings, and conventional stylised prayers (not that all services are like that at all). Some find encouragement and nourishment through alternative forms of worship and deep reflection. However a lot of the population find that these "traditional" and "other" forms of church either a waste of time, scary, confronting, and irrelevant.

I believe that there are ways to minister to these people in ways that move them and change them. While visiting The Wayside Chapel I saw a perfect example of this. The Wayside offer a range of programs that physically show the love of Jesus to those how are in the minority of society.

I also have a passion for liturgy and worshipping within the gathered congregation as well. Every time I've led worship I have enjoyed it and grown somewhat from it. I enjoy "experimenting" with different forms of liturgy and exploring ways that we worship. A couple of weeks ago, Celie and I led a Sundays@7 night and did worship in the form of Drama. The prayers, bible reading, and message were presented in an engaging and theatrical way.

When I look at and write down my sense of call in this was it somewhat frustrates me that the Uniting Church has two (2) ordinations. However, from what I have discerned so far I think that I feel more of a push and calling towards the Ministry of Deacon.